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My female owner had a bad-der day compared to yesterday. It was not as if anything bad really happened. She was just plain moody and emo over little things. Objectively, things went well for her:

• She completed some statistical analyses for her supervisor and sent it over to him for comments.
• She started on the journal publication that he wanted her to write and realised that it was not as tough as she thought it would be.
• She completed a large chunk of research admin work, something which she procrastinated for three weeks or so.
• Her placement was more or less confirmed.
• She managed to have a super light dinner (think diet plan) despite feeling emo.
• She managed to psyche herself to go for a quick run despite feeling hungry (c.f. consequence of the light dinner).
• She caught up with a fellow coursemate.
• Her friend called to check on her even though she said she was ok and didn’t need to talk.
• Her Singaporean friend shared some news with her which made her feel happy for her friend (vicarious happiness).

Yet, my female owner was moody and she amplified the odds and ends that happened today:

• She completed the statistical analyses but one imperfection in the results might mean that she had to redo the entire thing.
• Writing up certain parts of the article was easy for now but that was because she hadn’t started on the Introduction and Discussion sections.
• Her placement, though confirmed, was not what she wanted. Seems as if she has to conduct a lot of group therapy (think training!) with older adults (think weird accent for the clients!). And the supervisor is a neuropsychologist (?!!). My female owner had a crappy clinical supervisor the last time round. Recently, he avoided replying to her emails requesting for telephone supervision for an outstanding client. My female owner was and still is peeved at his lack of professionalism and ethics. She certainly hopes that this new supervisor will be better.
• To cope with the absence of externship, my female owner wanted to start on her first assignment over the weekend (she has no intention of going to school tomorrow) and decided to go to the library before it closed at 2200hr. Unfortunately, the library had a new closing time – 2000hr. Ah, another potentially unproductive weekend, unless she makes a special trip down to school…

It was just one reason after another to feel emo. My female owner whines a lot when she is distressed and sometimes ends up laughing at her childishness. My female owner also feels bad for feeling so emo, coz she knows that there are greater issues in life to grapple, and not whether you get a good placement/ supervisor.

Oh well.. justified or not, like what her Therapist Fren said, with a day like today, tomorrow can only be better!