wake-up

After indulging in self-pity for five days, my female owner got a little waking-up call from her current housemate. For those who are wondering, she is currently bunking in with a church friend until she moves to a permanent place.

Her housemate, a young and chatty girl from China, always enters her room to talk to her about things that are on her heart. Last night was no exception. Housemate came back from bible study, all charged up and excited because of the sharings she heard from others in the group.

My female owner could see the hunger in her, to experience God in a real and personal way. That yearning and desire to be used by God in the greatest way possible, to bless others and to lead others to Him.

In the midst of her busyness, self-indulgence and fun-seeking in Singapore, my female owner had lost her focus. She was literally taking a spiritual holiday and not cherishing the time she had and the season she was in.

God brought to mind the prayer she made together with her Intuitive Fren at the front pouch of his relative’s house on the night she met up with him in Singapore. The prayer they made, to seek God fully and to never let go, until God shows His power to them. She was earnest in her prayer then and would have gone on to pray more if time and place permitted. But oh, how easy it was, for my female owner to be consumed by her fleshy desires and distracted by her own emotions, and to sweep that prayer to the back of her mind.

Coming back to Brisbane, my female owner did not make the effort to meet anyone from church, unless necessary. It was as if she was trying to avoid this part of her life. She is due to join a new bible study group, leaving behind people whom she is closer to. Because of social anxiety, unfamiliarity with half of the members and apathy, she did not announce her arrival to them. An email would suffice but she didn’t. So many things have changed since she left Brisbane and returned. It is just so easy to live in denial and mope around and then feel guilty about it.

The waking-up call was good. It is time to live in the present and not in the memories of the past.