investing

My female owner struggled with many self-created issues this year. Through this conference, she reached a stage of acceptance that things were never going to be the same again. It is only wise to embrace changes and maximise them, than to pin for the glories past and wallow in self-pity.

First of all, she reckons she has to be even more deliberate in not comparing her current church group with the previous group. This is the present reality and people are still warm and supportive. If anything at all, my female owner is probably the coldest and most anti-social of the lot. And she suffers major cognitive dissonance from this, because she is supposedly one of the oldest (age-wise and years of being a Christian) and a psychologist (hence an expert on human interactions?).

Also, my female owner worked out that there’s a sort of spiritual restlessness that has been bothering her. She knows she can do more for God and people in need but she hasn’t ventured beyond her comfort zone. She does the occasional organising of events, cooking and helping out with small tasks in her bible study group. That’s about it.

My female owner is proactively passive. She doesn’t do anything unless someone asks her to (same like her jogging – she doesn’t push beyond her pain threshold unless someone leads). And then she would do it in an obsessively neurotic and perfectionist fashion and get worked up about processes and outcomes, and questionable decisions.

More than not being passive, t\it’s also about investing the gifts that God has given her to bless others. You know, like the parable of the talents. Not that she has really figured out what her gifting are but my female owner thought that she could start at where she is at now – using her helping skills to lend others a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. But this means that she has to first work on her anti-social tendencies so that people will feel comfortable enough to open up to her. Oh well, there’s no social escape for her.